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[ | | Wednesday September 3rd, 2008 | posted at 7:23 PM] |
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WOW. WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WOwoowooowowowow,So lets just say Toronto is so fucking hot. i love having to pay 110 dollars for the bus pass but i do end up taking the metro the bus every damn day. Today in my class of WARDROBE of course my group had the fucked up sowing machine and it took nearly an hour to fix the thread then again its a commercial sowing machine and it goes as fast as the wind blows. lol no gay but really its way too fast/ then my graphing class was incredibly cold but amazing. i love how proffesors even in University make you stand up infront of class and explain who you are. then again we should all be fucking proud because we got into the best theatre school in north america.theres only 60 people in our major out of the thousands who applied. and i am shitting in my pants knowing i actually made it in/ but then again............here it starts im now paying my apartment rent, electricity bills, heating and water bills just that is 800 a month and its in a basement of a four story house. i couldnt pay that shit alone tuition is already 6000 withought my books and lab fees. Oh and the fact that we have 6 hours of classes each day is KILLING ME. but when its what you enjoy its def worth it. i miss my jp and my dog, there only moving in 4 months since jp is getting a transfer to his job. if toronto wasnt only 7 hours away from quebec, it would be amazing/ANYWAYS.. i dont miss florida but i def miss the people in it. =[ hope we can keep in touch then again not having a myspace doesnt help
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[ | | Monday July 7th, 2008 | posted at 3:15 PM] |
so we bought a dog.
unfortunately the people who we bought it from didnt realise he needed to be 8 weeks old before he could be away from his mother.
its wierd calling me mommy and jp daddy. but we are a cute little family now.
hes a black cocker spaniel. with a white cross on his neck.
sooo imagine this but in black and white
http://www.methetree.com/assets/babyHoney.jpg
six weeks old and more than adorable.
Now on to moving to toronto in less than 2 months. im nervous but Ryerson University here i am. with my new little family nothing can ever beat that.
IIII LOVE CANADA.
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[ | | Sunday March 30th, 2008 | posted at 2:01 PM] |
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How does it feel to only have 43 days left in the United States? so amazing. How does it feel to have your boyfriend come to florida and drive home with you to canada? nobody will understand that but me.
After 2 years of talking, we made it official 4 months ago. My family is saying our last goodbyes. We try and make the best of it. As gifts we got a bed, laptop and silverware thats 25 years garanteed. Its amazing how you can expect one thing in your life, but plans turn it around. Im just happy mine are with my long time best friend and love of my life.
Id like to say goodbye to everyone and anyone that has been close to me. mostly pompano beach high. you helped me through the 11 years of being here, but im 18 and following my heart to my family back home, my love for my country, and my future university.
I wish you all the best luck in your lives.
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[ | | Tuesday December 25th, 2007 | posted at 3:24 PM] |
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this trip has already taught me alot, even if i have 2 weeks left, for the first time of my life i cant wait to go home. i already blocked my absolute best friend for 14 years. i hate how one person can change somebody so much. his girlfriend just because i am a fucking girl wont let me aproach my damn neighbor my best friend. i cant stand the person he is and became. other than that my love katy and my grandparents are the only ones who keep me saine right now. ive learned that its good i left this damn town. and will make myself of something. honest to god i miss working i miss my busy ass life because i never have to think about the people who bullshit me. he even had the guts after i said i wont be comming back for a while to say dont stop comming because of me. i cant stand it i want to go back home. ive learned that who i was before i came here, is who i will always be, and to keep following what i want to be because its farther than a small town with no dreams.
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[ | | Friday December 21st, 2007 | posted at 12:02 PM] |
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last night went to have coffee with j-p. then went home and watched ghostbusters. lol it was a great movie. today....katy is getting out of school so ill be great. during the day yesterday i made a glass fusion. it was long but amazing.
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[ | | Tuesday December 18th, 2007 | posted at 2:00 PM] |
so last night, it was simon, katy antoine felix, alex and me. playing the card game we have played since we were kids, its called asshole lol. but when i first came it was hard, i realised if i went to simons or antoines house, i couldnt bring up katy due to none of them talking for years. so i got everyone together. told alex to go next door and me and katy would come. we were in the basement for hours until the drinks started to come, back home your able to drink at 18, and parents dont care as long as their there. plus me and sim were the only ones not going to school the next day. so the game started at 7 and at 11 we dropped my beautiful katy home and went to the store then went back downstairs
the game had died, it wasnt fun with everyone gone, so antoine and alex went to bed, and me and sim watched movies, talked and while he had a fight with his gf i kinda just try to fall asleep since it was almost 2. after we went to bed to sleep and i couldnt stop thinking at how much everyone changed, and how it was so hard after 3 years to see everyone seperated. so i asked, what would it be like if i wouldnt come back. and he said i have never seen antoine so happy, your the only person who makes felix welcome and all the girls cant stop going crazy and getting so happy when they hear your comming. and i started to cry i couldnt stop, i couldnt take the change, i couldnt stand me being the only person who never forgets what we all had. he calmed me down, and i went home, it was 4 am, and i still felt like the people who i come back to change so much that there not the same people anymore.
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[ | | Saturday December 8th, 2007 | posted at 4:04 PM] |
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i was the fucking stage manager for TONY BENNETT. it was the most amazing experience working with him. i loved every momment of it. when the director shook my hand and congradulated me on being the stage manager that night i thought he was kidding. but fuck it great, only me the headset, the microphone, tony's wife, and my radio. the last time i was an Assitant stage manager, this time it was me and only me. i love my future job.. this internship can lead for me to go to new york to finish my degree
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[ | | Wednesday October 31st, 2007 | posted at 11:21 PM] |
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Im going to try and sum up, the most amazing time i am having in my life. my internship is more than incredible. i have met Benese, famous pianist Perhia, stage manager of aerosmith and poison, sooooooo much more incredible people. but these three weeks are my big shots. Radio City Hall Rockettes. i already met the tech crew, the producer of the rockettes, the manager of Madisson Square Garden their stage manager and the stage designers. Its amazing how 3 weeks with these people can affect my future. Even Tony Bennette in a couple weeks. this gives me so many connections and scholarships that for as young as i am, im so proud of how hard im pushing myself to become somebody. Now i have connections for NYU, who knows where i might end up in 2009 in university.
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[ | | Tuesday September 11th, 2007 | posted at 5:48 PM] |
a month of college, and its amazing,
i dont know how many essays ive written or how many hours ive studied.
but i know its all worth it. My first exam was today, of course college algebra, which completely sucks.
My boyfriends parents invited me to go snorkeling with them in 2 weeks, apparently were going to key largo, sounds fun =]
were planning on getting our diving licence.
woke up at 5 oclock to the loudest scream, i figuered we were getting robbed and someone came into our house once more so when i ran to my door i was going to lock it, but of course stupid me opens it, turns out my dog couldnt breathe, its so hard almost loosing the one thing that makes this family so good. him being sick kills me, he cant live withought medicine.
time to eat and then prob back to nates.
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[ | | Wednesday August 22nd, 2007 | posted at 2:57 PM] |
so after a week of buying my car me and my cousin decided to test it. so we drove up to orlando got a hotel room and a 2 day pass to universal and island of adventure. my car is great, and got us there and back perfectly. btw never do the ride e.t. it was horrible. im planning to go back for halloween horror nights.
starting college is a whole new route than high school. i love it, an hour day of class, 2 classes per day, some let you leave early like today we spent thirty min and left. what sucks was paying for the books which cost about 80 each. but atleast bright futures pays for my tuition. bcc teachers are insane, and wierd. but i love the no bell, or hasle if your late, the who gives a shit if your not there and the no homework. other than you better study your ass off because college algebra completely sucks.
other than that, its all good work weekends school weekdays. trust me high school seniors its all worth it in the end.
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[ | | Wednesday July 18th, 2007 | posted at 11:06 PM] |
i got my greencard..
finally 3 years later
you can say im out of here in less than a couple days.
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[ | | Wednesday June 27th, 2007 | posted at 11:08 AM] |
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i did it, i got my scholarship. i had only 2 chances and the last act score, i did it. now on to free community college, and to apply for FSU and UCF. i have a year to prepare.
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[ | | Thursday May 24th, 2007 | posted at 3:29 PM] |
do you know what it feels like when everything, is possibly at its best.
1) my first SAT and i got a 1290,
2) 100% scholarship
3) working all summer for my car
i got my cap and gown today. it was the best feeling leaving school yesterday. im done with that shit. and for the first time i have a future, i have a scholarship, i have a good score for someone who failed the fcat twice.
Im leaving for fsu to talk to the people, and in december im transfering there. doing bcc, until my parents and i have enough money to buy only my appt, due to my education all paid off.
this summer will be alot of work, whatever money i put down my parents are putting the same amount. so ill atleast have a really decent car.
i could kiss the ground, for how amazing this feeling is. for someone who was so confused about going to university, and working my ass off for my 100% scholarship these past 2 months.
all paid off.
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[ | | Tuesday May 8th, 2007 | posted at 10:47 AM] |
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i cant breathe through my nose well, and my throat is killing me. tell me whhyyy am i always so sick. my tuna sandwhich is making me feel better. im going to go lay out its a wonderful day.
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[ | | Friday May 4th, 2007 | posted at 3:11 PM] |
everything
is great.
we now take time and spend it together.
SAT's finaly!
11 full days of high school left.
guitar = amazing to learn
i got a notice warning to take down my orange drapes from my window.
summer will consist of so many friends
hopefully my greencard.
going outside, never let a beautiful day pass by.
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[ | | Sunday April 29th, 2007 | posted at 2:07 PM] |
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what do you do when you go overboard?
things were better, with relatives.
runaway. sleep in car. without never question what happened.
what do i do, when i cant do it anymore.
what happened to me knowing what i want in life.
why cant i help myself anymore.
what the fuck happened to me.
somebody give me a good kick in the ass, show me to be who i was before.
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[ | | Wednesday April 18th, 2007 | posted at 7:36 PM] |
What can you say when someone pays 25$ a month so they can call unlimited. i say incredible. i dont think anyones every paid something just so they could speak with me. other than me paying for a damn phone bill. this past month everything has just been incrediblyamazing. great friends where i sometimes get to be by myself which i enjoy. my online class is almost finished, school year almost done and now my work permit is in process. i went for fingerprints yesterday so now its going to be sent in the mail and for me to enjoy. i learned to put some money in the bank. yet my birthday money which was suppose to be put for a trip is more than halfway gone. great when you have a week to get food, and buy things for yourself.
for the first time ive gained weight, it drags me to sit down, people notice the fat hanging off my bellly. lol okay not that bad but im going to start getting into shape. i already started eating good, being influenced on junk food for a while wasent that great. im procrastinating homework right now. onlyy waiting for my nightly phone call. tuurns out i answer the phone in my sleep. i might do a theatre work with simone, exciting. i have so many events for the summer here and if i have my greencard everything is planned in canada.
i miss my loved ones, family friends. its crazy how you can live apart for 3 years and still talk everyday and no matter what they are always your best friends. and yet here moving to a new school only closer to my old friends from pompano, i havent seen some in a week, some in months and we never talk. its when you realise who your true friends are. college will change things, im going to work my ass of just so i can be prepared to go to university in canada. its all prepared, my parents are making me do this because its what i really want. and ill have my citizeenship so i can come back here whenever.
this is the longest post ive written in years. i miss writting things down. nothing really has happened since spring break. i love doing my own thing and always having such a good friend to speak with during the days, and nights. weekends sometimes the whole day. this will be an amazing summer. i know it
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[ | | Sunday March 25th, 2007 | posted at 6:15 PM] |
I read your post on tuesday..
i had no friends because of you.
you kept me in a place safe of people. so changing schools i didnt need new friends, i had you. i believed we would be together till college so i didnt need anyone else. in the mean time i had someone i was close to. i told you this kid was my best friend, he helped me so much happening with my grandmothers cancer and i helped him go through his heartbreak. if that was 6 months ago add 3 months through us and that makes almost a year. i broke up with you, it wasent you who did it. i am "imature" because i had no one when you left me, you had the guts to leave me on my birthday when my friends now came in 5 min and celebrated my birthday the next day. would you of taken me out, spent money on party stuff and a cake? ha if you dont even have the heart to come drive 2 min to give me my stuff i doubt you would of wasted your time. i added my old friends on myspace because im not lossing them. yeah i added new friends too. we deleted it together because we didnt want drama. so through all this im the one who is imature for making friends, my myspace, and talking to the one boy who stuck around more than you ever did.
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[ | | Sunday March 11th, 2007 | posted at 10:27 PM] |
soo about 7 days until my birthday.
moving and changing schools has created an amazing mess.
first off, im graduating this june with the coral springs kids. their amazing, i never thought id grow out of the pompano school clan, but i would never go back. its like being free from drama. i register my cap and gown tmrow.
my parents have desided to move to california. theirs absolutely no thought where i might end up. theirs only one person who can keep me here and thats derek. other than that im back home in canada. my parents said its not their desision on where i want to stay sooooo. on my own here i go.
im going to connecticut/NY on the 30 and my birthday is next monday. i can say its a pretty sweet month. only me and derek in connecticut/ny with his family. im veryy excited. and filming the whole process. other than the doing online classes for early grad. its so worth it though.
i miss canada. i want my greencard. i get to work this summer im getting my work permit in 3 months. my dad FINALLY registered me for it. i cant wait to hug the people i have loved for 10 years of seperation. and to see my lovely grandparents.
other than that. im taking life one day at a time. alot of studying and work soon and just grow up. and enjoying the days with my best friend who is also my boyfriend.
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[ | | Wednesday November 22nd, 2006 | posted at 3:32 PM] |
mmmmmm. lamarcas class. always so relaxing.
sooooo lets see what has happened recently.....
simons going into the army in a coupld weeks.,., i wish him luck. my close friend. neighbor. and the one i will always call "best childhood lover/friend"
my cousins comming to florida. hes 22. i have to hang out with him/?1. w/e
im picking myself up at school. more on the work side..
talking to someone which i shouldnt be../ youll never forget heartbreaks.
thanksgiving will be boring/ okay.
my aunts vegan. and shes doing the dinner. its always interesting =]
im going to cut my hair again, and redye. its time. again lol.
ehhh ill post later on. when more is to come.
but its peaceful. my life. im enjoying it.
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[ | | Sunday November 12th, 2006 | posted at 12:00 AM] |
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[ | | Wednesday October 25th, 2006 | posted at 2:31 PM] |
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ive recently avoided chats.
and little conflicts. only to come about how confused i am.
im planning to be moving with my best friend after highschool.
going to ontario. im sick of florida. united states. whatever.
im going back home. my parents were fine with it.
simons going to the army..
i try not to talk about it to him. his excitement kills me.
but since younngings we promised to stay close.
soo he promised letters.
and sharing an appt. if he can make it to ontario.
anyways. this weekend. so much to do so little time.
idk if i can make it to urban outfiters. =/
i have to check things out.
i know im going out to dinner. meeting up with isaacjeremy.
SOOlong,.
saturday. too much work. but im in needd of the money,
THEn ill go shopping.
sunday. who knowws.
its freezing.
but if waves are nice,. hopefully.
ummm thusrday. idk whats everone doing.>?
i met this kid and hes from my town. he must think its wierd i dont obssess over how he is a thing i guess... being a bassist of fefe dobson. hes from TROIS RIVIERE. lives right near me. so awsome. he makes me miss home.
again.
okay so the yeah yeah yeah's are saving me.
done with work.
fuck third block.
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[ | | Sunday September 24th, 2006 | posted at 12:13 PM] |
so homecomming here i come.
vote for shelley =]
kaila i cant wait to slow dance with you <3
when life is great.
you've got nothing to complain on here.
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[ | | Wednesday September 20th, 2006 | posted at 7:15 PM] |
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DO you ever stop and think.
and think you know what youve been waiting for.
until you realise its impossible to reach?
theres just no such words.
as love.
to now. breaking hearts and finding my own.
but i feel as it only belongs to one.
one to whom may never in their right minds think of it.
and one whom ive desired since the early years of highschool.
one who you forget until it reapears.
one for ill only desire until this gay relationship is done.
and if i dont keep my word.
i will only fall for that one once again.
once that relationship is done.
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[ | | Tuesday July 25th, 2006 | posted at 3:48 PM] |
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turns out im moving. not only away from margate but away from florida. hopefully. my dads getting a new job and he said that we would be so happy and joyful to go live somewhere like in california or boston. or am i dreaming? we could be in minesota and id love it for goddamnsake. my *bestfriends birthday was yesterday. me thinking it was going to be a blast ended up in fumes and just gayass tears and hugs. being told to go home and then hearing they went out was like my liver taken away. calling myself emo i had seth hug me for a longwhile waiting for my parents to arrive.. i still dont know what i did wrong. one second we hold hands the next im bitched at. why cant people grow up and talk. anyways. im gonna takethe car right now. and leave. and leave. and do the one thing i hate the most. [think]
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